| So yesterday I was staring at Leroy and I kept thinking..
About how...
The starting of the year.. or.. even summer 06 in general.. I always wanted to fight at Dereks house if we had to fight, not because I liked doing it in front of his family, or anything.
But because I always knew if Leory was there, he'd see that I was sad, like he did, every single time, and come give me a hug.
And it would always make me feel better.
*sigh*
I've known him for so long, its so weird being in like, right now.
Speically with DARICK. Haha. I've known him since, what? very starting of 8th grade?
We'd be seniors this year.
It's so fucking weird. I feel so fucking grown up.
like holy shit.
since when does life happen this fast?
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| I wish I knew how to hurt the people I love the way they can hurt me.
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| Amanda Beyer is no longer my family.
Darick Robision hates my guts and is dating Derek's little sister Courtney.
Leroy got arrested at school.
Derek got arrested at browns point.
Alysias Mom is dead.
Willie is moving to Organ on thrusday.
My Grandma knows I smoke weed.
Im moving out in the next four months.
Jyssy and I are best friends again.
Hannah and I are not.
I almost stopped throwing up.
My hair finally got fried and I had to chop most of it off.
I spent months partying at DJ samurais apartment without him there minus a few times.
His girlfriend tried to get down with my boyfriend in front of me.
Derek liked her and wanted to fuck her and it almost ruined our relationship.
I take way too much shit fromh im.
He controls everything.
but I love him too much to make it stop.
Im finally accepting my Mom.
I can remember good things.
I started talking to Lance again and now hes in seattle until January.
I learned you can never trust anyone.
My life keeps getting more and more interesting.
I still can;t drive, but Im learning.
Dereks tempo broke down in august and now we have a 1989 ford probe.
Britney spears is a hot bitch.
I think I'd be a lesibian if it wasn't for Derek.
Im pissing blood.
Hahahahaha...
Im going crazy.
Look out world.
I'm ready.
:D
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| Myspace Pword is the same as this now.
REMEMBER WHORE. |
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| The year is almost over.
And I feel like the whole thing was a complete waste of time.
I am so unhappy with everything.
Ive never felt so much hate before in my entire fucking life.
I don't know which way is up from here.
So lets hope the first choice is the best.
xoxo. |
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